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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Hm, well...

I'm about three days out from moving. I keep thinking that there is so much to do and so little time to do it in, yet I'm having trouble being busy all day. I guess I'm busy thinking all day.

For instance, more recently I've been preoccupied with room-decorating. Photos, posters, etc. I have so many pictures on my computer that I'd like framed...I know Eckerd will print your digital photos for you, so I might have to take advantage of that, and then buy a ton of photo frames. I think I like the idea of covering my room with pictures of friends, family, special people. Being surrounded by their images makes them feel less far away, I suppose.

And then there are the (very few) posters. Actually, I think I have only two. Perhaps I'll find more on my mother-daughter shopping trip. Who knows. Maybe a wall tapestry? I'd want to consult my roomate first, though.

I also happen to love black and white calendars. Especially because you can cut out the beautiful photographs and frame them as if you'd taken them yourself, or bought them at some expensive art store. That's today's cheap decorating tip. Hmm, maybe I'll buy more calendars...for more wall art. They aren't so expensive.

Hmm, what an appropriate title.

Oooh, Paris. If you look at more views of it, you'll see that it has a photo of the arch that the Washington Square Arch is modeled after. Also very appropriate.

What is with all of these Shoe calendars? 1. Who wants to stare at shoes all year? and 2. Why is it in the Art and Architecture section?

Hmm, self improvement and self help calendars...I don't think so. Interesting concept. Almost like those word-a-day vocabulary enhancing calendars. Oh how silly our society is. Always hunting for outside advice from strangers, as if they know us better than we know ourselves.

Hummm. Thinking about these little details helps. It's not that I'm worried that by the end of the year, I'll have no friends and one hellish experience to recover from. It's just that...hearing reports from every one of my friends who has already moved that they feel awkward or isolated or sad or even somewhat disappointed or some combination of these feelings makes me worry that I'll feel that way. And maybe I will. I've accepted that...sort of.

But wait a minute. If it's anything like orientation, it really won't be so bad. I recall really enjoying orientation, and I was perfectly able to make friends there. So what am I worried about? I....don't know. But what can I do about it when I'm days away from it?

Bury myself in little room-decorating details.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Well, here I am. I am 5 1/2 days from going to college. Moving into my dorm. Why is that so hard to believe?

I don't think I'll have problems as far as the practical aspects of living away from home. I can keep my room tidy, do my laundry, my homework, the dishes, feed myself (and not gain the freshman fifteen), keep up with how much I'm spending, I can even travel on my own (once you've been on a greyhound bus, airtravel is a breeze).

So...what's making me a bit nervous? I have to make new friends.

I have to make new friends without a "home-base" to come back to. Well, ok, so I'll have Chris and Ryan in New York, and I'm starting to "make friends" with my roomate, and I have the few people I friended at orientation, not to mention Alex to check in with. A lot.

Sigh, I dunno. The funny thing is that I just posted advice on one of Ze Frank's forums about making friends in college. Not to mention, I talk to my friends who have already moved in, and they have the very problems I'm afraid of...backstabbing new friends, or feelings of isolation. And these are people who have friends already going to their schools. Gahh! But maybe the friends being there isn't always so helpful. Maybe it impedes the friend-making process. Maybe.

I guess the most bothersome thing about it is the fact that I can't do much about it now. I just have to sit and think about it. Once I'm there, I'll be out doing it. That's consoling, I s'pose.

Although, I got really excited tonight when my roomate and I were talking. We sortof hit it off...I think. I can't really tell at this point, I guess, but we seem to at least be able to get along, which I guess is the most important thing right now.

Alright, so I've convinced myself that it won't be so bad. Thank you blog.